I was four or five years old when I learned to be afraid of tornadoes. For most kids, it is monsters, or the dark – but for me, it was tornadoes. I remember my dad showing me pictures in the National Geographic of a storm that came out of nowhere, so powerful it could destroy [...]
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[Housekeeping] Good Reads, Links, and Favorites
Sunday, 2 January 2011
• Preview – I had a maternity session today with a friend from my chiropractor’s office. I just HAVE to share this one with you! I made some decisions yesterday, with the new year coming in. They might not be popular decisions, but I needed to make them. • Kelly Sauer Design – I am [...]
[ A Restless Heart ] What Life Is
Thursday, 30 December 2010
I’d met her online. I knew her broken heart, knew her story. But I had not seen her worship until I met her in person. I sat in a back-ish row of the old school auditorium, surrounded by badly-painted concrete memories from my elementary school days as a public school student, surrounded by the crazy [...]
[ A Restless Heart ] Invitation to Grace
Tuesday, 28 December 2010
Opening my home is not an easy thing for me. It involves cleaning my house and preparing my kitchen for extra mouths. It means that I won’t have my own space, the little that I get in between my littles on a given day. It often means that I have to take care what I [...]
[ A Restless Heart ] May it Be
Wednesday, 22 December 2010
I could always believe at Christmas, believe that the things that were tearing me up could really be okay. I decided to transfer colleges at Christmas after a rough first semester in Iowa. I fell in love the first time over a Christmas break. I believed I could keep loving over the next Christmas. The [...]
[ A Restless Heart ] stretched, spread, scattered – a little real
Thursday, 18 November 2010
Tolkien’s description of Bilbo’s living-tired, “thin, like butter spread over too much bread,” it is echoing through me this morning. I am up early, aching tired and wide awake – and half afraid to admit it, because I don’t blame anyone for it, and I don’t want it all to stop, because this is the [...]
[ A Restless Heart ] On self-promotion and a pure heart
Friday, 12 November 2010
“But I thought I could detect a moment–a very, very short moment–before this [my duty to please the Creator turned into the deadly poison of self-admiration] happened, during which the satisfaction of having pleased those whom I rightly loved and rightly feared was pure. And that is enough to raise our thoughts to what may [...]
