yesterday, something changed. something woke up in me that had been dreaming, something indefinable suddenly defined itself and i woke up to my here and didn’t quite know where i’d landed. someone offered an idea that i’d left behind, and i went quiet with the remembering. i worked on the same image all day, cleaned [...]

The breaking happened on a Thursday in mid-October, 2002. I don’t remember dates, so the fact that I know this stuns me. A week before, I had spent hours on my knees, praying over a meeting between my first love and my best friend. He’d stopped talking to her when he’d stopped talking to me. [...]

I have the most deliciously fun homework ever. I get to go searching the web for pictures. The kind that tell about me, about my brides, about what I want my whole site to feel like. I’m having a blast (and being a perfectionist, as usual), and I’m even getting way inspired on my new [...]

I’ve had a little more time recently to play with design. It is the thing I can do when the barometric pressure goes wonky and my restless heart kicks into high gear. (I can almost focus on it when I have spring fever too, but come on – who accomplishes ANYTHING big on Fridays in [...]

What if I dared to live what I believe deep down, regardless of the yes or the no or the nod of approval or the expectation? What if I opened my life up to the good because I want to, not because everyone else is preaching it or saying it or doing it? What if [...]

I don’t remember if it was raining, or if it was just that heavy gray covering the landscape in the way that makes you feel like you’re drowning. I was alone in my car, a ’93 Ford Taurus that boasted a lot but didn’t deliver much when it came to maintenance. I hadn’t been alone [...]

Twelve weeks to play toward God. Twelve weeks to look into my life, let Him speak in. Twelve weeks that has turned into months. I’ve been months in L.L. Barkat’s “Silence” chapter in God in the Yard. In October, I left it there, snowed under with work and noise and a still small voice I [...]