Tolkien’s description of Bilbo’s living-tired, “thin, like butter spread over too much bread,” it is echoing through me this morning. I am up early, aching tired and wide awake – and half afraid to admit it, because I don’t blame anyone for it, and I don’t want it all to stop, because this is the [...]

“But I thought I could detect a moment–a very, very short moment–before this [my duty to please the Creator turned into the deadly poison of self-admiration] happened, during which the satisfaction of having pleased those whom I rightly loved and rightly feared was pure. And that is enough to raise our thoughts to what may [...]

I’d like to be invisible today. I know this is not something a good, competitive photographer should be saying, but I am saying it, and pausing a little in my marketing strategy to reset, and to remember. I take focus to my sessions, and concentration, not “professionalism.” I am a person meeting people, photographing life. [...]

My schedule is crazy this week. I have two sessions to process today (I don’t know if I will finish) and a newborn shoot tomorrow. I will be glad when things slow down a little after these free sessions are done. People aren’t quite so ready to pay for my work as they are to [...]

I am journaling again. I don’t know what it is about me that I can’t keep my words inside, that I can’t make sense out of life and just hold things in my heart. I have to come out somewhere, say what I’m thinking to someone, think out loud, dialogue my brain things. I’ve gotten [...]

I got up the other morning before the baby, an unusual turn of events. The light was up, my favorite light, the early morning kind, and I grabbed the camera while I had a hand free. I shot and shot and quite thoroughly enjoyed myself, ignoring a vague discomfort in my stomach. My head felt [...]

Sometimes, I walk into a day with clarity: I know who I am, what I need to accomplish, what my day must hold. Some days, I don’t know where to begin. I know that I don’t have a clear view of me. God keeps uncovering deep in me that I didn’t know. On the days [...]