my still
Monday, 17 May 2010
this is my quiet time. my listening time. my fade-into-the-background time. the travel, the two babies, the constant lack of time calls me quiet, calls me out of existence into the still to be found when I talk nonsense and nothing, when I don’t want my phone to ring, when I need to get through the next thing – and the next and the next.
it is going around, I think, first Arianne, then Joy, now Amber – and Emily has been away writing her book. we all have our reasons – mine is my two. and a trip to virginia and doctor’s appointments and teething and time for my man and my God.
I still exist. I worry a little that I won’t if I don’t write, but as days slip past, I grow stronger and more peaceful, less concerned with my own need for it – at least here. I rock a little slower, pull my babies a little closer. it is not as if time is mine; but it is not as if time is over either.
it is not my time to go, though. He is coming for me. “wait here,” He says. “see what I am doing.”
so I meander around my house in slow motion, rest as I can, learn my family over again, learn not to be afraid of love, because it is stronger than I can guess. I read and listen and talk to God without words for now, risking a peek at His face now and again, waiting for full sun.
I’ve started a story, a post about change, about direction. there is free in the still, free I haven’t realized, lifted condemnation and breath for living and moving and being. but it is my quiet time now, when I can’t be available to write and to write and to write all the words that are building inside me. it is time to live silent and real and firm, without letting in the voices that try to overpower His.
I can hardly wait for the overflow. I am restless with excitement.
No. 1 — May 17th, 2010 at 2:14 pm
learn not to be afraid of love, because it is stronger than I can guess
mmmmmm …I like that
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No. 2 — May 17th, 2010 at 4:12 pm
there is free in the still, free I haven’t realized, lifted condemnation and breath for living and moving and being.
I am shocked to discover this too, here in the still…
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No. 3 — May 17th, 2010 at 4:17 pm
Joy, I have been thinking of you today – I should call…
No. 4 — May 17th, 2010 at 4:22 pm
Kelly, I’ve been thinking of you even though I haven’t commented or tweeted lately. I am finding myself in a quiet time too. Praying for you in yours. The other day I read something about how after we come through a time of trial God gives us a time of rest and refreshing. That’s what I’m praying for you! Blessings on you and your household!
No. 5 — May 17th, 2010 at 4:36 pm
I will be praying that you remain in this still until God completes the rest, renewal, and refreshment you need. Thank you for sharing some courage to wait in the quiet.
No. 6 — May 17th, 2010 at 5:01 pm
There’s joy in listening and joy in expressing. It’s like breathing. We need both — inhaling and exhaling, over the course of a lifetime. There are seasons, too, where we do more of one of these. I’m glad for you that you are able to rest in where you are.
Blessings.
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No. 7 — May 17th, 2010 at 5:52 pm
can i be still with you?
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No. 8 — May 17th, 2010 at 6:37 pm
I had my quiet time away from blogging for many weeks after the film contest. Just got back in the saddle last week
“I grow stronger and more peaceful, less concerned with my own need for it…”
:)
I was prompted myself by what I shraed in “10 Ways To Make Rest One Ambition”, went and did it & it has been wonderful to know that I know I am free.
Enjoy and lean into your quiet time.
In time, it will overflow.. as it always has for you. And we will be blessed in the meantime knowing you are experiencing God’s rest.
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No. 9 — May 17th, 2010 at 9:36 pm
oh do, please… :-)
No. 10 — May 17th, 2010 at 10:46 pm
“it’s time to live silent and real and firm.” oh yes indeed, my friend. Pull those babies close and rock slower still. We won’t be sorry we chose the life-right-in-front-of-us.
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No. 11 — May 17th, 2010 at 10:49 pm
Oh yes, it is definitely going around. So very glad to see you here though.
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No. 12 — May 17th, 2010 at 11:41 pm
Jesus says that Mary chose the wiser. And I think He would say that you do, too.
Enjoy The Still.
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